Work, happily

It's a good thing to be doing something, but it's a better thing to be doing something for people you like. At work, especially, the people who you would be doing things for aren't always gonna be the most worthy of your service. Don't get me wrong, you would still complete your job, but how much satisfaction would you get out from it? Of course, when you can't control the person you work for, that usually means it is also out of the question to talk about it with anyone at work. Most of your potential listeners would have been seasoned, trying to get a piglet airborne will be easier than have one of them agree on your complains.

Not to say that you are alone on facing this, at least not during office hour and in the office. I hope your world doesn't just consist of your colleagues and your boss. You should still have people to talk to outside during non-office hour, they probably will do a better job than your co-workers. Well, what if the people you meet at office are your world? Can you know beforehand that if these people are worth your time?

Unfortunately, I doubt there is a fool-proof way to tell it, you really have got to be part of them before their true faces are unveiled. I also don't encourage you to follow the " if you can't beat them, join them." strategy, being part of them will only make things worst for the next person.

The best solution, in my opinion, is choose another job, and never ever surrender yourself to one if you find no pleasure in your work.

Rope, nope

I'm at work, I'm supposed to look occupied with work. Mostly, I can't do the things I wish to do. I have to resort to secondary options like going to toilet, chit chat with colleagues, reading in a unconfortable manners. I'm not allow to sing, listen to music with out earphone, or do cleaning. I have to get ready anytime during work hour in the office which seems pointless to me. I'm waiting for orders from people I don't know, pretend to speak in the most professional and boring way I can think of. Emotionless, like a zombie. All because of money. For survivability. We were asked to do so. Do we have a choice? I believe yes. We are just not willing to step out of our comfort zone. We hate uncertainty, we want to feel safe, even if we risk sacrificing many more. We often get something big, but what we don't know is we are stopped from getting something bigger the smaller thing are too close to us, too close to our eyes and blocked our view or the bigger objects. Step back a bit, leave everything else where they are, you are deserved to see more things even bigger across the horizon.
Often time we don't have the courage to do so, even I who are constantly thinking of this, I need more than courage to do it. I'm not alone, there are several people with me looking at the smaller object at the same distance. What If I step back and they don't? Are they gonna believe me what I see? You have  ways to make sure they do. You can sever your connection with them, so you won't have to explain what you see because you are not obliged to do so anymore nor they have any intention to know. The other one is you can tighten the rope that are tying you all together, so when you step back you pull them along as well and none of them will see different thing than you do. I don't know which one is the preferred way to do, nor which are more superior than the other. It's all up to personal preference, the one who are responsible are yourself. Choose, stick to it and be responsible is what every man, no, every human being should do. Don't live in other people's shadow or decision. Live yours, sever or tighten the rope is your choice. You are probably not the only person who are troubled with it, the other also have the cut or tighten dilemma, you can be the executor or be executed. You can also turn on passive mode all the way and eventually you will be left with yourself. That is essentially sever mode, but not actually, because you didn't make any choice so you are not responsible to anything. As far as my understanding goes, try to avoid that situation, that is not going to sculpt you in any way. Be active, take action. Good luck!

Let's do it

It has been 20 days since my last entry, "I've been busy lately." is my reason. But in reality, I'm not actually telling the truth. Yes, my tasks in hand had grown since the last 6 months, I no longer have the privilege to daydream. But yet, they haven't deprived me of mine sleep time, what have was the amount of time I procrastinate. I have been doing that a lot, when ever I stop to take a breath, sitting in front of a PC not doing work related things, and/or when I have a lot of free time. That is not good, because when I don't have much time left for non-work related stuff, I have no time, and when I do have some time, I have little. THAT IS NOT HEALTHY. I just need to talk myself out of it, stop thinking that I still have a lot of chance to do them and I should focus on things that pleasure me. I DON'T. When I think some thing isn't done, I should get it done, not set it aside for later. Because that is how time is wasted, we should not be wasting any time doing things that don't benefit us. Every actions, every thoughts must come with reasons. Not because I think I "should", "it is the safest", or "I don't have time to think over the rest of the options." Do it immediately, or when the next possible time appear. Not leave it to the future. The "you" now and the future "you" are the same "you." That is no reason for us to think that the future "you" won't mind the things the present you do now. Only them our mind can then be free, resulting more time to think straight. Everything get done, less worries. There is a dreaded cycle, "you need to do something, leave it for later,later, leave it for later again," eventually they just heaped up so much that it become a daunting task just to think of it, and when you are not thinking about it it heaps up even more and you want to think of it even less. Eventually you forget about it. When it comes back to haunt you, the mass if so large that you simply won't be able to take it. And the cycle begins, and sooner or later it's size are so massive that you stop doing meaningful things. Your life become bad, stale, stinky, when you realise something is wrong, that's nothing you can do about it. Be thoughtful, fix the problem immediately, live good life, be responsible to yourself so you can do it to the people around you. Smile, everyday, everywhere, anytime.


Love, Peace, Hope, and Dream.