Perhaps An Introduction Would Be In Order

Hello, nice to see you here again.

I've thinking, should I write my blog consistently in a fixed writing style as I often find myself drifted away from the topics of the entries thus made them looked kinda incomplete.
Maybe I should give it a try since I have come up several way on how to make my entries look neat.
The very first matter I thought of putting in use is to imagine there is an invisible person here in the blog, who secretly reads my blog, and eagerly hopes to hear from me every nights.
In short, one who cares about what I write.

Without further ado, let's get started.


It's been quite a while since I started writing my blog in English to practise my fluency in it. As you have seen, I've wrote numerous entry each titled with different feeling of sentiments, I hope they haven't been very boring to read. I think the majority of you like to read blogs (at the least, you are reading one now which is not the most interesting blog on the web), but don't often write them or don't do that at all. But what I want to share is that writing blog can be very calming and frustrating sometimes.
I will give you one simple example of myself.
Trying to write blog with a language that is not your first greatly affects the way your write, since lacking the tools( which in this case, vocabularies) to modify the contents will potentially bored your readers.( see, the contents are getting boring now.)

While I'm trying very hard( not hard enough I guess.) to improve my write skill, I still hope I could use some attention of you all, the readers.
We don't really have to interact in any way since I don't there's a need to do that.
So why should I care if there are any readers for this blog? I think the main reason lies in my personality.
I do, prefer to be alone sometimes, but majority of the time I enjoy being with people, chitchating, having fun etc, I think there is a good way to recognize myself in a way.
So is to say, while every time I'm writing this blog, just the thought of the presence of any off yours is more than enough to continue my keyboard smashing activity.

I hope nothing turned out too mushy for you.

Until next time, may you always have some one who is looking after you.

Free Association

Two days have passed since the beginning of December, the month of the lovers.
I nicknamed it that because that is when the most romantic festival is in, Christmas.
Love often sprouts in this season, isn't it?
Winter it is.
Winter is so cool(I know, pun.), unfortunately I live in a tropical island where the clouds here don't form snow.

Imagine, walking in a snow-covered pathway holding your beloved hand, with a turkey which waited to be roasted by you two, along with some candy canes and a couples of ginger breads, when reached home, your love one rushed into the kitchen and make yourselves some two cup of hot coco drink, how beautiful a scenario it is! Seemed like it could only appear in fairytales!

Well, it did seem like, as it was an imagination after all.

HOH eh

Today I'm gonna write my blog entry in "Singlish", a.k.a. "Singapore English."
By doing that isn't going to help me improve my ability in proper English, but, well, just for the fun of it.

Alright, without further ado:

Hello, today i wake up at 9am, eat the breakfast liao i go see videos in youtube, but i never do my maths homework leh, sian mah tats y i see videos first. O.O
then i see liao see, i realize my stomach hungry liao, then i see the time, wow, time to eat lunch le.;)))
so i eat lunch until want vomit then i continue watch the videos, i tot i can do some home work de but like no mood lei, so i continue to see the vids lor, what do to.
:(((then i think if i never do, how can???;(((
so i force myself to read abit or words lah, better than don have mah, i then think.
then i go take bathe lor, smelly mah, shit abit, wash here rub there, then i come out liao changed clothes then go work le, also bring my dinner too.;p
then reach work liao, sian sian liek that, but then hor, alot of chio bus come lei X.X, sibei alot leh, but i never bio too long lar, don scare kena slash by their bf meh, scare scare lah

then work work liao until now like 1240 le, i feeling abit happy la, now, cos can go home liao mah, when go home liao i don want eat anything, scare fat mah.
tmr wake up liao work one more day i can off liao sibei happy la :>>>

SONG DA!


END


I have made a promise to myself: whenever I'm given the chance, I shall speak proper English.

Until then, may you not realize your goose bumps all are already on the floor.

Filled with Rainwater

I guess changes don't happen overnight.

There is so many stuffs I hope I can change in my life, but that is beyond my ability at my current state. At times when I was traveling, I often caught myself thinking the vehicle why I still took bus as my transport, why shouldn't I be in a car which I was the owner? I always thought that having an ownership of a vehicle was considered to be a rich sign. Heck, even travel in Taxi was a thing I had been looking forward too.

Next scenario comes in when I was in the middle of eating a bowl of instant noodle, I was gutting the noodle, a sentiment would always come to my mind: "Why would I be eating this unhealthy food? Do I have a choice for something nicer?" , I know, silly thoughts.

Another one to put an end to this whining blog entry: "Am I allowed to have one of these at home? Why not? It would be nice if I didn't have to travel this far to have fun."

That dialogue always happened on my mind when I was having fun in some entertainment facilities.


Join me tomorrow for some random talks again.

Until then, may you always get what you want.

AMEN

In my life, there haven't been any successes.
I have never participated in any school exams, needless to say nor I have any certificates.
I hadn't been worried, not until the summer of 2008.
I quit my first ever job back then, thus I was given a lot of time before my next job.
It had turned up to be a whole damn year.
During the early period of my jobless time, I spent most of my time to get myself entertained by all sort of things, going out with friends, surfing the internet from morning till night, playing computer games, and thinking what fancy food I should eat everyday are among them.
That was a normal day in early spring of 2008.
Sometimes, I realized I hadn't got enough money to pay for the entertainments I found, and when I found the situation was getting worst, I knew something wasn't right.
During the early winter of that year, I stayed at home everyday, for I only had $5 to spend everyday.
There were many things I want to own, but I couldn't as I had got little money, and having no income meant even if I had waited the situation won't get better.
That was when the disaster struck.
I started losing confidence in myself, I would get pissed off very easily by trivia matters.
I spent the whole day fearing some unknown stuffs, I couldn't eat nor sleep well.
Sometimes I would tear under my bed sheet, sometimes I lie there for the whole day without cleaning myself.
I wasn't the usual self.
I did try to improve my situation, I tried to ask for help from my parents, but, what can they do?
I wasn't the only one having issues in my family, in fact, my whole family has been in a bad scenario ever since I can remember.
I know, everyone have their own problems, and they would ask for help, however, I wasn't given the option to do that, that wasn't fair.
Since I had got myself a new job, my condition got stable down a a but, but the scars, once there and they will never be gone.
The feeling of the unhappy time gets reminded occasionally, especially when I'm feeling down.

By writing this down, I wasn't hoping anyone would feel sorry for me, I just thought I would give myself chances to let other knows about what obstacles I'm currently facing.
At least I won't feel so lonely.


I'm being emotional now, and that emotional side of me has not brought me anything worth mentioning today, I hope tomorrow morning when I open my eyes I would calm down a bit.

Life has to move on regardless how my emotions flow.

Ever Before, Never After

I slept for extra 2 hours today as I didn't want to feel same tiredness as yesterday's due to lack of sleep.
By the time I woke up, the time had already been 5 minutes or so past 11am, so I skipped my breakfast and was waiting to fill my stomach with a little bit more food during lunch to make up the absence of the breakfast.


I've been striving to understand the maths questions thrown at me from my Primary 5 maths text book, though, sometimes I just couldn't get the essence point in them.
However, like how I did to my English text book back then, I will continue the mission of understanding until I'm very familiarize with those maths formulas.

Today's the last day of the week, it has been quite a tiring week to me.
I didn't get my off day on last Friday, as I had to replace a colleague who had fallen ill on that day.
He still has not returned to work yet, thus I didn't get a chance to claim my off day.
Well, look at the bright side, I will get more money next week when I get my pay check.


To be honest, I like to work, I could even imagine myself working seven days a week without any rest; I just dislike the feeling of staying at home all day idling my time away, to be more specific, I hate it.
As I had been through the irritating time, I don't think I can tolerate any of it anymore.

I won't let it happen to me again.