Love Family love

My friend is going to leave for other other country. He is planning to be away for at least a year. Along with his partner, he is going to start a new life a couple thousand kilometer away from his old life. He seem to be quite excited about this, of cause he should be. As for the people around him, I'm not too sure. 

Being the only child in the family, he was sure to feel lonesome even more after his mother left for God. But I'm sure he is not the only one. His father wasn't going to to be any less lonely than he was. His father loved his mother a lot. Probably more than my friend was (he probably has as much love for his mother as his father has now). It probably would have taken more time for the two of them to cheer up had they not have each other's support on his mother issue. Yes, it is good to still have a son when your wife is gone. But, there isn't the case anymore. 

I'm not sure if my friend has had consideration on his father feeling. I certainly have. He asked me to kindly look after his house and his father when he is not around, I agreed but I had other opinions on my mind. When something happens, that is only that much an outsider can do. Sometimes the presence of a family member helps tremendously. I just feel kind of disappointed on my friend decision on this abroad decision. 

I don't know who or what made my friend made up his mind, but I know his father loves my friend, his only son, a lot. So is my friend. As for the other person, heaven knows. 

Rainy Days

Yesterday, I went to the funeral of the founding father of Singapore, Mr. Lee Kuan yew, located at Parliament House. That were many people, all waiting to take a glimpse at the hearse coming out from the Parliament House. I arrived an hour early, together with a friend. I was actually invited by him for this event, as he is curious about the 21 gun shots, a ceremony at the funeral. The weather was getting worse, as we were getting close to the starting time. As expected by many of the people onsite (most of them brought umbrellas), it started raining. God the rain was heavy, it even broke through my friend's almighty umbrella. Both me and him were very wet when I noticed a girl standing near us seemed to be alone. She was defenseless against the weather as I failed to see an umbrella in her hand. So I made my friend notice her. As a gentleman, my friend kindly offered her some of our sheltering space. She accepted the offer after saying thanks to both of us. 

The rain was getting heavier when another girl, this time noticed by my friend, appeared alone behind us drenched and without an umbrella, too. So, he sent out the helping hand again... BOOM! Everyone were looking where the direction of the sound came from. It was from the grass field in front of the Parliament House. The ceremony has started. After a few cannon shots, the hearse was passing us. The crowd was excited. Some of the people even shouted Mr.Lee's name out loud. After that, the firing continued for 10 more minutes. People started to leave even before the firing ended when the hearse had gone. As we were leaving the two girls that we rescued said thanks and good bye to us before we went a separate ways. 

It was a definitely a unique way to spend a Sunday afternoon, especially with the girls encounter. The funeral was grand, the attendance were behaving orderly. But I saw quite a few foreign figures in the crowd. I wonder how significant is Mr. Lee to them or if they only just like to join the crowd. Most of us probably don't share the same motives being there, but nobody will know, nobody will care. 

天空开始下雨了

我撑的伞 保护了四个人

而你撑的伞 保护了五百万人

在我脸上的雨水 有多少滴是眼泪的伪装

我和你的距离 可以是天涯海角 可以只是几块木板

如果二十一声响炮 等于你存在的时间 我希望 他们可以多开几下

Pay up

Because I found my family having difficulty handling household expenses, I volunteered for the job. In turned out I wasn't much better at it than they were. I mainly manage rental fee for our house and the electric bill. I make sure they submit the money needed for them every month on time. It sounds like an easy job, especially I'm not the one submitting. Except when you don't see money by dead line. I hate having to follow up 3 times a month asking the sum. I feel as long as everyone is respecting the agreement and are well prepared before the deadline, we should not complicate something this simple. When thing like this happens, it only makes me sad.


When I'm sad, my meter level for self-control will fall. Imagine a balloon that is over-pumped, there is little room for any further expansion. I don't like being like that as it only clouded my reasons. So, I try to understand why would they do it, what is their reason for the delay? I tried to talk to them, and of course they had their reasons for it. I don't really agree with them but arguing wasn't going to bring us any further with the discussion so I kept quiet and told myself to find another angle of understanding.


After some struggling in mind, I finally able to convinced myself that they were only late on the money. As long as they still able to come out with them, on time or not, I should not be bothered too much by it.

(Continued from previous post)

We bid farewell to each other after the dinner, thinking when would be the next time we meet again.

I got a text message from an unregistered number in afternoon two days ago, asking me if I was free. I didn't have any person in my mind who the owner of the number was, until I checked the profile pic. It was him. He asked me out for lunch after I replied him that I was not occupied that afternoon. We went for Ramen. He was very enough to share his stories of success and even show the willingness to help me for my future. That was when I told him I didn't owe any certificate nor skills but was willing to learn and have been learning. We paused the topic for awhile and went for a walk at the malls. As we were walking, he continued to share his stories and experiences in the adult world. I felt like he was like a teacher to me. I don't know what kind of experience would be having a teacher teaching you new knowledge and caring for you but I think that was close. After malls, he introduced me his office(it was a public holiday, so that was no one in it). I really appreciate him showing me around the office, that made me felt like I was still a useful guy that was still valued by such a experienced guy. We talked in the office for another 20mins while he was sorting his stuffs at his desk, he proceeded to send me home.

Before we arrived at the car park at my place, he gave me some advises. He said I should start looking for some private school and get some certificates that will help in my career. He also seemed to know my financial level and was offering to help me with that.

I'm really grateful.