Twilight over Thanalan

Another peaceful day for me I guess.
Nothing agonizing happened to me.
Ate some fish as lunch and dinner along with chicken soup with cabbage.
Finally able to take apple today,the feeling of biting a whole apple is so addicting which is not something not from drinking apple juice can compare.
Haven't been slept well this 3 days.
Have been having a lot of dreams when I was asleep.
Though I had found a solution for my headache which is keeping the room door opened to allow exchanging of the air to happen.
Lack of oxygen was the cause of my headache.
Well,it's cured.

I'm feeling a bit hungry now but I not sure if I should eat,partly because I'm getting up early tomorrow.
Should I eat now and eat again in the morning?Or should I just fill my stomach in the morning instead?
Maybe I should wait,I don't want to grow anymore fats.

I really miss those days when I'm writing my blog in Chinese.
I like the freedom it gave me that allowed me to be able to express myself thoroughly,I hope
English will give me the same freedom soon.
All I need to do is to let myself exposed in English environment more,so to remove it from my stranger list.

Everything's fine,even my lips are recovering too.

Another Friday,let's put all the worries in life aside and have fun this day.

I continued the Fairytails story today,still great as ever.
I starting to like Erza more,she's strong,elegant,arrogant,gentle,hilarious,humorous,sublime.
Nevertheless to surprise how could all these traits could all be found on a person.

She's just that amazing.

Words words words:

Chreograph-To create the choreography of.

Yelp-To utter a short, sharp bark or cry.

Poultry-Domestic fowls, such as chickens, turkeys, ducks, or geese, raised for meat or eggs.

Thud-A dull sound, as that of a heavy object striking a solid surface.

Equilibrium-A condition in which all acting influences are canceled by others, resulting in a stable, balanced, or unchanging system.

Pious- Having or exhibiting religious reverence; earnestly compliant in the observance of religion; devout.

Preemption- The right to purchase something before others, especially the right to purchase public land that is granted to one who has settled on that land.

Slosh-To spill or splash (a liquid) copiously or clumsily.

Agitator-An apparatus that shakes or stirs, as in a washing machine.

Nutshell-In a few words; concisely.

Hullabaloo-Great noise or excitement; uproar.

Rehabilitation-To restore to good health or useful life, as through therapy and education.

Unprecedented-Having no previous example.

Herbicide-A chemical substance used to destroy or inhibit the growth of plants, especially weeds.

Shoots-The young growth arising from a germinating seed; a sprout.

Solitary confinement

I supposed to wake up at 930am today,but end up at 10am today.
I was tired, for been in a fight between the reality and my mind.
The reality would try to push me to a corner of despair every so often,but my mind wouldn't permit that.
The reality is cruel,I know I need to convince myself to accept this truth at some point in my life,in fact I've been doing it.
But the point is,the task occasionally trips you along the way of the acceptance.
Whenever I fell,it's usual for me to find something to grab on.
Hands of friends have been among the most common thing I'd come by,but I realized I couldn't grasp tightly as they were all too fragile,too,I could only put a little part of my weight on them to let myself to stand up.
I've been looking for a more solid support for my case.

Perhaps the hand with a firm foundation hasn't arrive yet,or it just doesn't exist.

Another method would be to train my legs,so they could stand up by themselves without any external help.


I'm going to town after I ended my work today,which will happen in 31mins time if everything goes right.
I'm thinking of what should I eat later for my dinner,something cheap and nice would be great.
I'm starting to feel hungry now.
Only a packet of rice with stir fried bean sprouts,stew cabbages and a chili chicken balls supports me from 11am till now.

My the crack on the corner of my lips have been recovering,the dried skin had fallen off yesterday night and this morning revealing the new born skin.
I'm able to talk faster,talk louder and talk clearer today also didn't have to struggle putting food into my mouth anymore.
Yee-pee!

Words I came by yesterday!
Maiden trip- a ship's first voyage.
Absent-minded-Deep in thought and heedless of present circumstances or activities; preoccupied.
Precocious-Manifesting or characterized by unusually early development or maturity, especially in mental aptitude.
Weep-To shed (tears) as an expression of emotion.
Socialite-One prominent in fashionable society.
Inflict-To deal or mete out (something punishing or burdensome); impose.
Unwitting-Not knowing; unaware.
Tread-To walk on, over, or along.
Vengeful-Desiring vengeance; vindictive.
Strive-To exert much effort or energy; endeavor.
To no avail-Without any benefit or result.
Delicate-Exquisitely fine or dainty.
Cut the ground from under somebody/somebody's feet-To make someone or their ideas seem less good, especially by doing something before them or better than them.
Renaissance-A rebirth or revival.
Cellar-A room or enclosed space used for storage, usually beneath the ground or under a building.
Vast-Very great in size, number, amount, or quantity.
Juvenile-Not fully grown or developed; young.
Profuse-Plentiful; copious.

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Feeling down...
I don't know how much longer I can last...
There's so much things to be said...
So much things to be done...
Yet I'm alone...
What I'm seeing is...
No one else but myself...
My only audience...
Are my left and right ears...
Sometimes...
I even got betrayed by them...
What more can I ask for...
I'm alone...
After reading this...
I know you will want to help me...
But I also know...
I'm the only one who is able to help myself...
I'm in the middle of nowhere...
My ceiling's not the sky...
My legs can't feel solid floors...
I'm drifting...
On a road without U turn signs...
I'm on a ride that don't know how to make a turn...
In fact,it's too afraid to make any turns...
I know I can't pilot it yet I'm piloting...
I hoping to find a stop...
So I can refuel...
To tune the ride...
To prepare for starting a journey which I could make turns...
On a roads with U turns sign more than I can count...
And to be able to give others a ride...
To accompany me on my lonely trip...

This contents of this blog entry are depressing...
But I've nothing else on my mind now...
I hope at least it'll make me feel better to unload them here...
Here,my blog,won't feel sorry for me...
It just listen...
Won't give me opinions and advises which I don't need...
I don't have another option...
The person up for this job hasn't arrived yet...

I don't like and don own any good experiences at the current stage of my life...
Or was there...
A life?...

(I'll be good,don't ask me anything regarding this blog entry,even if you ask I won't talk.)

Words for today:
Lurk-To lie in wait, as in ambush.
Ominous-Menacing; threatening.
Moratorium-A suspension of an ongoing or planned activity.
Droplets-A tiny drop.
Snorkeling-To dive using a snorkel.
plume-A space in air, water, or soil containing pollutants released from a point source.
Docile-Ready and willing to be taught; teachable.
Naught-Nonexistence; nothingness.
Coffer-A strongbox.
Prospector-One who explores an area for mineral deposits or oil.
Petroleum-A thick, flammable, yellow-to-black mixture of gaseous, liquid, and solid hydrocarbons that occurs naturally beneath the earth's surface, can be separated into fractions including natural gas, gasoline, naphtha, kerosene, fuel and lubricating oils, paraffin wax, and asphalt and is used as raw material for a wide variety of derivative products.
Erosion-The process of eroding or the condition of being eroded.
Marshland-A marshy tract of land.
Substance-That which has mass and occupies space; matter.
Fisheries-The industry or occupation devoted to the catching, processing, or selling of fish, shellfish, or other aquatic animals.

Those who fight

October's ending,only 7days more till November.
That means the year's going to end soon too,which means Christmas's near.

If I'm only allowed to keep one festival for the year,it would be Christmas.
I'm not sure why,I do believe the tale that Jesus Christ really was born on December 25th,not to mention I'm not even a christian.
Somewhere deep in my heart, got the feel that one day I'm gonna be one.
All the religions in the world are worth the respects from everyone,no matter if you were part of it,however Christianity gives me not only the thoughts to respect but to know more about it,I even finished reading a Bible once.

I don't know if I'm gonna make myself free on Christmas eve,the direct translation of its Chinese name,Peaceful Night,which I prefer that over its English name,to celebrate with the rest.
I might do that,but I won't be celebrating at town this year I guess,instead I would do that at a church.
Celebrating at church together with the Christians might bring be more meaningful to me.
Alright,church's celebration it is then.

As for November,there will be a BBQ organized by a former colleague cum friend at a pit by the sea.
I'm attending together with a few friends.

I think these are about the outings for me this year.

Some of the foreign words I read today:
Cope-To contend or strive, especially on even terms or with success.
Metropolis-A major city, especially the chief city of a country or region.
Fodder-Feed for livestock, especially coarsely chopped hay or straw.
Brave-Possessing or displaying courage; valiant.
Incubating-To sit on (eggs) to provide heat, so as to promote embryonic development and the hatching of young; brood.
En route-On or along the way.
Astonishing-To fill with sudden wonder or amazement.
Scope-The range of one's perceptions, thoughts, or actions.
Blowout-A sudden rupture or bursting, as of an automobile tire.
Dilemma-A situation that requires a choice between options that are or seem equally unfavorable or mutually exclusive.
Blistering-Intesely hot.
Quip-A clever, witty remark often prompted by the occasion.
Deluge-A great flood.
Runaway-Something that has escaped control or proper confinement.
Crude-Being in an unrefined or natural state; raw.

Afternoon on a Barcelona street

I'm in a bad shape today,the corner of my lips has cracked.
The dryness around it is more than anyone could tolerate.
I dare not try to moisturize the dry skin with tap water as I'm worry about infections,nor with my saliva as I was told once the saliva evaporates it brings the water on the skin along too and it's going to make the skin even more dry.

I even had to skip my apple today since I can hardly open my mouth let along biting a palm size apple.
Not to mention talking,I don't usually talk much when I'm working and today I talk even less,I almost had to rely on sign language.
Hope my lips' skin condition will return to normal soon.

Today on Facebook,I made friends with quite a number of people,mostly strangers,for Mousehunt as members of the hunting group.
I used to do that a few months back if I remember correctly,but one day I decided to delete all the friends except those that I know in real life.
At that time I felt they are unnecessary and so I did that,but come to think of it they didn't do any harm to me at all,I shouldn't have gone that far.
I even had the max privacy settings set for them back then.

But yesterday,I changed my mind.
I started adding people I haven't met before,reason for doing this is because I want to expand my social circle.
It's not that bad to know more friends and to let more people know about me.
The most basic reason you could ever thought of,I guess.
I'm also looking forward to adding those people I met before but had lost their contacts to my Facebook friend list,if you happen to be the one I'm talking about and happened to see this message,please add me as your friend too!

I'm currently reading a report of the oil spill at the Deepwater Horizon blowout,but I've not got any details of how the oil spill happened.
I'll stop here today since I'm going to continue the reading.

Bye Bye!

New English stuffs today!:
Uproar-A condition of noisy excitement and confusion; tumult.
Maw-The mouth, stomach, jaws, or gullet of a voracious animal, especially a carnivore.
Frigid-Extremely cold.
Bewildered-To confuse or befuddle, especially with numerous conflicting situations, objects, or statements.
Embody-To give a bodily form to; incarnate.
Dumbfounded-To fill with astonishment and perplexity; confound.
Orthodox-Adhering to the accepted or traditional and established faith, especially in religion.
Resentful-Full of, characterized by, or inclined to feel indignant ill will.
Chagrin-A keen feeling of mental unease, as of annoyance or embarrassment, caused by failure, disappointment, or a disconcerting event.
Mourner-a person who mourns, esp at a funeral.
Matrimony-The act or state of being married; marriage.
Heathen-One who adheres to the religion of a people or nation that does not acknowledge the God of Judaism, Christianity, or Islam.
Docile-Ready and willing to be taught; teachable.
Hideous-Repulsive, especially to the sight; revoltingly ugly.
Prevail-To be greater in strength or influence; triumph.

Besaid

I hate to write when I don't any thoughts I want to express.
Especially when I'm tired or busy,or when nothing inspires me in my daily life.
If I was forced to write when I wasn't prepared for it,the stuffs that come out aren't going to be very pretty.
Like now,where I'm in the exact scenario.

Well,since I'm keeping the promise I made to myself,a promise of writing an English blog entry whenever I can everyday,I shall continue this torment.

A few days ago,I adjusted my time I need for sleep,shortening it to 7 hours instead of the usual 8hours.
Surprisingly,I woke up without tiredness each morning after that.
The extra 1 hour I had been used as my sleeping time is now used as my time in each morning eating breakfast and studying English.
It is an improvement in my lifestyle I suppose.

Music is one of the elements I can't live without.
I used to pay for them,but the situation I'm in now don't allow me to do that anymore,
I've to forgive myself for listening to free music for the time being.
I will make a vow here,that once I've the ability to buy them,I'll stop my music downloading behavior at once.
Should I fail to fulfill it,deaf I shall be.
I'm serious this time.

Just now,I was trying to sort my email's mails into folders,so I can have a easier time finding my mails be alert on what's going on,after that I continue the sorting in Facebook contacts,sorting them into various groups.
Suddenly,after the sorting I find myself should expand my friend list for checking out more people's thoughts everyday.
The first step I decided to do was continue to add more people who plays Mousehunt,at least all of us share a common interest being friend shouldn't be that hard.
Next step is a bit more tedious,I decide to browse through my friends' friend list and add whoever I know in real life but hasn't added to friend list yet.
I'll do that maybe in one of my off days?

That's all for today,

by the way it's now 2:12 am.

Stranger words I encountered today(been trying to think of a new way to address it):
Embed-To fix firmly in a surrounding mass
Unsightly-Unpleasant or offensive to look at; unattractive.
Vain-Not yielding the desired outcome; fruitless.
Benevolent-Characterized by or suggestive of doing good.
Daring-Willing to take or seek out risks; bold and venturesome.
Bumpkin-An awkward, unsophisticated person; a yokel.
Pigheaded-Stupidly obstinate.
Kick the bucket-To die.
Rippling-To form or display little undulations or waves on the surface, as disturbed water does.
Cult-A religion or religious sect generally considered to be extremist or false, with its followers often living in an unconventional manner under the guidance of an authoritarian, charismatic leader.
Recon-The smallest genetic unit capable of recombination.
Inception-The beginning of something, such as an undertaking; a commencement.
Clad-To sheathe or cover (a metal) with a metal.
Weave-To make (cloth) by interlacing the threads of the weft and the warp on a loom.
Dirge-A mournful or elegiac poem or other literary work.
Rendezvous-A meeting at a prearranged time and place.