Naught

Today's Friday, should be a day that can cheer people up.

But for some unknown reasons, people around me doesn't seem to be happy today.

One of my colleagues has been scolded by our boss because of a stupid reason, even though he didn't say anything, I could tell he has been feeling upset from his expression.

Also, I have been given hints of anger from another colleague of mine, he has been gentle ever since we met at work, but today he seemed to be acting stranger than normal days he have been.
From the given hints I'm able to figure out that I have better be more careful on how I will act and speak until the end of today's work shift.

Writing an entry for blog everyday is a habit I have been cultivating, I think by consistently doing that I can improve my English slowly but steadily.

I cannot possibly fully express myself here, even though there is so much to be said.

Adjectives:
Inquisitive - Inclined to investigate; eager for knowledge.

Mushy - Resembling mush in consistency; soft.

Prickly - Prickling or tingling or smarting.

Tame - Brought from wildness into a domesticated or tractable state.

Vast - Very great in size, number, amount, or quantity.

Bewildered - To confuse or befuddle, especially with numerous conflicting situations, objects, or statements.

Ashamed - Feeling shame or guilt.

Combative - Eager or disposed to fight; belligerent.

Flipped-out - To lose control of oneself.

Defiant - Marked by defiance; boldly resisting.

Envious - Feeling, expressing, or characterized by envy.

Frantic - Highly excited with strong emotion or frustration; frenzied.

Grumpy - Surly and peevish; cranky.

Jittery - Having or feeling nervous unease

Nasty - Morally offensive; indecent.

有一种营养， 叫作眼泪。

I often remind myself that I still have dreams, because that keeps me motivated.
Dreams are a must to let a person look like a person, otherwise a person without dreams is just the same as a living dead, or a zombie.

Unless I want to live a zombie live, I'll keep dreaming.

And it is important to remember what are your dreams, you can do that by either sharing them with others and make them remind you once in a while or you could write them down.

I've heard someone wrote his dreams on a small paper and keep it in his wallet so that he can read them whenever there is a need.

I think that act is pretty cool, I won't be surprised if I find a note in one of the compartments in my wallet with all my dreams written on it.

Well, I truly understand that not all the dreams will come true, however, just the thought that one of my dreams might come true is already enough to reignite my spark.

Currently, besides my dreams, there aren't a lot of things that have the capability of cheering me up, that is why I haven't been feeling too happy for anything.

I just want to keep my life as simple as possible for the current time, I don't think it is a good idea to drop a rock into an already blurred water.

What you see, may not always be what you get,


at least from me.



More adjectivesss:

Avidly - Having an ardent desire or unbounded craving; greedy.

Boastfully - In a boastful manner.

Busily - Engaged in activity, as work; occupied.

Clumsily - Lacking physical coordination, skill, or grace; awkward.

Crossly - In an ill-natured manner.

Defiantly - Marked by defiance; boldly resisting.

Dimly - Lacking in brightness

Enthusiastically - Having or demonstrating enthusiasm.

Frantically - Highly excited with strong emotion or frustration; frenzied.

Joyously - Feeling or causing joy; joyful.

Tensely - Tightly stretched; taut.

vibrantly - Pulsing or throbbing with energy or activity.

Vivaciously - Full of animation and spirit; lively.

Wearily - Physically or mentally fatigued.

Zealously - Filled with or motivated by zeal; fervent.

Reponding to your reponse

Although I have quit Magic due to lack of time and resources, I still like updating myself of what's new about this hobby.

It's very rare of me to like a game that is not from made from an Asian country, however Magic has been an exception.

Especially when you could break down Magic into many parts, you could be of zero interest on one but totally fond for another.

For me, I like playing Magic online rather than face to face as the computer keep tracks every thing like life totals of mine and my opponent's, some phrases issues, and permissions to do stuff, to mention a few.

By the way, I like the arts that uniquely come with each of the cards, even the most useless card for playing use could come with one of the most amazing arts.

Like Desolation Angel, Wrath of God, Gush and many many more.（These cards aren't useless by the way.)

For every great game that comes with a great player, to me Luis Scott Vargas is the proest among the pros.

I like watching his videos from Channelfireball.com, which is a website he owns for sharing tips on how to play Magic well, whenever I want to know about what's going on in Magic.

LSV, keep up the good work!

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Comical - Provoking mirth or amusement; funny.

Reasonable - Capable of reasoning; rational.

Poised - Held balanced or steady in readiness.

Quaint - Charmingly odd, especially in an old-fashioned way.

Sparkling - Shining with brilliant points of light like stars.

Shiny - Radiating light; bright.

Smoggy - Clouded with a mixture of smoke and fog.

Spotless - Perfectly clean.

Unsightly - Unpleasant or offensive to look at; unattractive.

Wide-eyed - Having the eyes completely opened, as in wonder.

Annoying - Causing vexation or irritation; troublesome.

Brainy - Intelligent; smart.

Cautious - Showing or practicing caution; careful.

Concerned - Interested and involved

Doubtful - Subject to or causing doubt.

夏祭り

Few days ago I decided to spend my one of the only two nights of in a week, which is on tomorrow, to go buy some stuffs for the BBQ this weekend.

But just a moment ago I thought wouldn't it be a waste spending this precious day to go shopping?
Since I can always go shopping in the after noon on any days in this week, why must it be at the particular night?
So I think I will actually end up doing it on other days, maybe on Thursday afternoon, or Friday afternoon.

I've been feeling down for some reason, probably because life's been too bored for me.
I've heard and seen the fun in the outside world, still, I don't know if I'm ready for all the fun out there.
But I really want to step outside and experience what's the feel like, I want to fly outside of this cage that is limiting my moving area.
I'm even willing to break a couple of bones and lose some feathers to break free, I truly understand that those would be the required costs that I would have to pay in order to free myself from my current situation.
Eventually, all will be worth it.

I'm not complaining, nor I have the options to do so, it is just some problems I've been living with for so long before I could remember.
Honestly, I admire myself for having tolerated my saddening life for all these years.


It's not that I'm smart, it's just that I stay with problems longer.

Adjectivesss and adverbsss:

Daring - Willing to take or seek out risks; bold and venturesome.

Well-received - having been greeted or reviewed with approval.

Unscrupulous - Devoid of scruples; oblivious to or contemptuous of what is right or honorable.

Ominous - Of or being an omen, especially an evil one.

Torrential - Resembling, flowing in, or forming torrents.

Unrepentant - Having or exhibiting no remorse.

Filthy - Covered or smeared with filth; disgustingly dirty.

Glamourous - Full of or characterized by glamour.

Gleaming - A brief beam or flash of light.

Graceful - Showing grace of movement, form, or proportion.

Grotesque - Characterized by ludicrous or incongruous distortion, as of appearance or manner.

Homely - Not attractive or good-looking.

Magnificent - Splendid in appearance; grand.

Misty - Consisting of or marked by mist.

寂寞，是一群人的孤单

I supposed to wake up at 930 but end up at 1130 instead.
And the rest of the day I haven't been in a good mood.

For whatever reason, I kept yawning from evening, it has only stopped awhile ago.
Maybe that signaled that I was tired, though it didn't have to mean physically.
Mentally fatigue, should I say?

Whenever I was in a bad mood, I usually would be very quiet, by talking less and let my mind to slow down and think would lift me up from my downed spirits.
I wonder why was that, maybe I just wanted to be myself, but for sometimes things just didn't go right for me, to which I needed to betray my own self and swapped my face into somebody I couldn't recognise.
I didn't bother to explain to those who couldn't understand my thoughts whenever that happened; If they failed to know me, there wasn't a point for me to care for them.
At the end of the day, the person I'll be facing is always myself.
if I won't even be able to take care of it now, how am I going to care for others who are around me in the future? At what stand point should I be in?

So, save your breath from understanding me, it you didn't manage to do it, that meant you don't need to.

What else is there?
I'm not having the craving for food tonight, though strange because pass few days I've been having suppers before I slept but not that I mind, it is good for my diet anyway.

I won't be having BlackShot fun with my friends this week as I requested my off day for this week on a different day attending a BBQ organised by an old friend of mine.
I hope it will all be worth it for such a big sacrificial.

I guess that is all for tonight, see you around and hope tonight I'll have some quality sleep time: no noise, no light, and no chilling wind.

Adjectives and adverbs I learnt today:
Hysterical - Of, characterized by, or arising from hysteria.

Manic - An excessively intense enthusiasm, interest, or desire; a craze.

Rustic - Of, relating to, or typical of country life or country people.

Dismissive - To stop considering; rid one's mind of; dispel.

Groundless - Having no ground or foundation; unsubstantiated.

Illegible - Not legible or decipherable.

Deadly - Causing or tending to cause death.

Accursed - Abominable; hateful.

Adorable - Delightful, lovable, and charming.

Adventurous - Inclined to undertake new and daring enterprises.

Blushing - To become red in the face, especially from modesty, embarrassment, or shame; flush.

Drab - Faded and dull in appearance.

Distinct - Readily distinguishable from all others; discrete.

Dull - Intellectually weak or obtuse; stupid.

Fancy - Highly decorated.

1 down, 549,006 to go

I usually don't take breakfast as by the time I wake up it is already close to lunch time.
But I want to make breakfast as one of the three meals I have each day, in replacement of supper.
If I need to let it happen, I will have to wake up early each day, so after eating breakfast there is still a few hours more for my stomach to digest that, before eating lunch.

That also means I would have lesser sleep, maybe I will shorten the time for sleeping to 6hrs instead.
Somehow I believe if I am given enough time I will make myself be adapted to the 6hrs sleep routine.
Maybe I should give it a try. If fail at least I will know what is the minimum amount of sleep I need to have.

I hear taking breakfast is very important, I'm starting to believe this theory as I have been given a few examples from myself.
During those days that I took my breakfast, the rest of the day I would feel very energetic, that was very convincing to me, as I, myself actually saw the result.

I found a website that is full of English learning materials, I could use some of the resources there.
The reason I've been searching for website like this is because sometimes the English text book's limited explanations couldn't satisfy my needs, so I got no choice but to resort to free internet information.
Although I still cannot speak and write English fluently without pausing here and there, I think my English understanding level has somewhat achieved what I've been striving for, so I guess it's about time for me to move onto next subject I wanna learn more about; maybe science or maths.

I'm still feeling kinda tired after from having to sleep at 3 am for the pass 3 nights, I hope the tiredness will fade away after tonight's sleep.

Oyasumi nasai. Good night.

Decided to spend time on learning adjectives/adverb from tomorrow onwards:


Colossal - Of a size, extent, or degree that elicits awe or taxes belief; immense.

Neoclassical - A revival in literature in the late 17th and 18th centuries, characterized by a regard for the classical ideals of reason, form, and restraint.

Sculpture - The art or practice of shaping figures or designs in the round or in relief, as by chiseling marble, modeling clay, or casting in metal.

High and low - Here and there; everywhere.

Bust - To become bankrupt or short of money.

Petulant - Unreasnable irritating or ill-tempered; peevish.

Ponderous - Having great weight.

Hideous - Repulsive, especially to the sight; revoltingly ugly.

Abhor - TO regard with horror or loathing; detest.

Deliberation - Discussion and consideration of all sides of an issue.

Abroad - Out of one's own country.

Contemplate - To look at attentively and thoughtfully.

Womanizer - To pursue women lecherously.

No-go - A situation in which planned operations cannot be effectuated, as in the case of the launch of spacecraft.

Anachronicstic - One that is out of its proper or chronological order, especially a person or practice that belongs to an earlier time.

Amiss - Out of proper order.

A Day Without Melodies

The time is now 1:29 and I'm very quiet. I should be usually asleep at this hour, but today's Saturday which is the day I have to work until 3:00. On Thursday, Fridays and Saturday, which is today, this week, I've been eating in the 2 hours before I sleep, I clearly knew that this is bad for my diet, as I've been trying to throw some weights away, but I just couldn't control.
Maybe I haven't had enough sleep for the pass few days too, either due to my work or me having to spend time on friends, which could also be the possibility cause of my craving for supper.
Now I figure out that in order to keep my appetite in check I need to let myself to have enough sleep, so then I'll be able to concentrate on fighting my desires for food.

Talking about food, yesterday I was brought to an eating house by my friend who stays near it as we decided to settle our dinner there.
When I was still struggling on what to eat while wondering around in the open air spacious place, my friend introduced me a stall that fish ball noodle is considered its signboard, I chose to have a bowl of fish ball noodle from the stall run by a couple of what seemed like to have already married for at least 30 years.

Thanks whoever above for having to make me trusted my friend, since the choice I made didn't fail me. The fish ball noodle I had was good, almost too good I would say, I will skip the rest and say just this: the home made fish balls were good, almost too good I would say.
The fish ball noodle I had at the place near my friend's place was the best fish ball noodle I've ever had in my whole damn life. I can't imagine fish ball noodle from any other stalls could surpass that.

I'm starting to feel the tiredness from my long hour work today, 40 mins more and I'm heading home.
I hope I will be in deep sleep when I lie down on my bed, so I'm listening to some calming and peaceful music, also in the mean time hypnotizing myself.
By the way if you are curious on what song I'm listening to that has the hypnotizing effect, the song title is It's already gone whose original singer is Kelly Clarkson, but I'm listening a different version of it, which is sung by Princess, a Filipino songtress, who is told that she can't have a single day without music.
I hope person who has this belief will be getting abundant, because I think that is really cool.

Strange letters combination:

Commence - To begin; start.

Boutique - small retail shop that specializes in gifts, fashionable clothes, accessories, or food, for example.

Stumble - To come upon accidentlly or un expectedly.

Inquisitive - Inclined to investigate; eager for knowledge.

Speculate - To meditate on a subject; reflect.

Exhausted - To wear out completely.

Pester - To harass with petty annoyances; bother.

Squander - To spend wastefully or extravagantly; dissipate.

Covet - To feel blameworthy desire for (that which is another's).

Flustered - A state of agitation, confusion, or excitement.

Fout - To show contempt for; scorn.

Adapt - To make suitable to or fit for a specific use or situation.

Entrap - To catch in as if in a trap.

Pedantic - Characterized by a narrow, often ostentatious concern for book learning and formal rules.