$100

My friend and I went out with my father today, it was quite a strange feeling because us father and son rarely go out together. We went to a aquamarine exhibition, where they showcase many winner fishes, from fishes with a big lump on top of their head to fishes with scales as big as my thumb. My father paid the entry ticket for three of us, I was quite amazed at how generous he acted. He also treated me and my friend each a canned drink during lunch time. So, after a short tour at the fish exhibition, we went to the electronic one next door. My father was quite lost at the site saying that he didn't understand most of the stuff being sold there. Before we left, I bought a desktop speaker and my friend bought a earpiece that was 8 times more expensive than what I bought. We parted at the train station, my friend on himself and my father and I were taking different route home.

We reached out place's area one hour later, we also stopped at a supermarket near my place to buy dinner.
Then I received a text message, it was from my mother. She asked me to pass my father $100.

I knew it.

My father has always been like that. He didn't even have enough for himself and still spent money because he didn't want to lose face in front of others. Part of the reason why my family ended up in this situation is probably because of this bad habit of his.
Feeling disappointed, I passed him the money. Of course, while concealing my feeling towards him again.

Are you game?

I cannot stop playing some kind of game or another. It's really tough to imagine my life without any games. But playing game takes time. I'm aware that time is finite, I should spend it wisely. Spend it with you loved ones, studying, exercising, writing, tidying room, see the world etc etc are some of the options I can think of. But, what if, I've already done most of them that I just want to spend some time on games, does that make me not wise? I don't know. I just want to play games sometimes. But when I'm done, I will have some kind of guilty feel that I've wasted the precious time in my life.

I'm confused, my right brain wants to play games but left brain says otherwise.

30 hours of thinking time

It's been a week since my mother went back Malaysia. Life hasn't changed much for me or for my family. I'm glad to know that, because it's really hard to tell when will my mother be back to Singapore.


After this Sunday, I'll be starting a new chapter in my life. Sort of. I'm going to start work at my friend's company. That is going to change my life one way or another. Firstly, I won't have as much free time as I have now. I have to make a new schedule for my guitar, Japanese and exercise. There should be a couple more tasks in the schedule, drawing and Photoshop, but due to the nature of my work I'm also doing them when I'm working, I hope. I want to have a job, to pay my bills etc, but I also don't want to sacrifice all of my free time for it. I'm certainly need to find a balance between them.


Five more days to go, I'm going to slowly adjust my mindset and daily life within them to prepare for my first day of work.

Third Person Shooter

I like to see my friends, seeing them usually lifts my spirit. But not all of them are suitable for the job. There is one friend that I've known for very long, but I've found myself feeling a lot less excited than before seeing him. Both of us owe each other a lot, so I've always try to be nice to him as often as I can. I've found it getting harder to do it recently. I don't feel the joy of hanging out with him now, it feels more like a task than a casual meeting between friends. It's not his fault and I hope it isn't mine either.

So, that is only one person to blame.