You've got a message!

I went to sleep last night with very little hope that I could wake up refreshed. Surprisingly I was wrong, it was not as bad as I predicted before I sleep, although it was pretty bad. Energy surrounded me were having a hard time finding an entrance into my body shell. They were absolutely there, I could feel their presence, just that the locks that guarded the entrance were too solid. Admittedly, no matter how stubborn a lock wants to be, if can be opened with the right key. With the aforementioned key, I can let the energy not go to waste, but my mind was rejecting the search for it as well. 

Okay, so no energy for me before lunch, I gave in and accepted the fate. My body had switched to auto-pilot mode to conserve the isolated energy within it, my mind drifted along. I had very little memory of what went passed in front of me, they were light flash light at maximum power, too bright be accepted by my eyes's pupils. The only thing that made an impression to me during the train ride to office, was a white lady who sat beside me. Her figure was quite slim, we didn't need to fight for room in our sit. Nothing special, except that out elbows touched each other's unnecessarily. 

Was she trying to send a message? 

Happy Chinese New Year 2016!

When you are alone, festivals don't bring you the same amount of joy as they do to the companied. People like to get confirmed on their idea, when you are alone and you are feeling positively, you need somebody else beside yourself to also tell you they are feeling the same way, too. Without them, your joy wouldn't be complete, because you are not sure if it is really what you feel like, or is it just you hallucinating. Some people feel a affirmation by a person is good enough, some need more. I am the former. True screams are buried under false music. 

This year's CNY is very unique to me and my sisters, because our parents are celebrating over Malaysia while we are doing it in Singapore. Even for me, who can be quite emotional but stays logical most of the time, the separation feel kinda tough. I hope my parents would not get too emotional over there, hope Teck Cong's sister will do a good job making them forget about the tough time we are going through now. 

After CNY, life will be back to normal for a while, I hope our things will get sort out by end of this year, or even before the start of June.