Puzzled Maze

I feel so uneasy with my father and decong around, that seem to spoil the balance of the peacefulness in my house. I feel restrained with them around, so strange. They are by no mean strangers to me, but I just can't bring myself to talk to them sincerely. I usually want to complete my daily tasks when I have free time , but with them around I have so much more to worry. I gotta change this situation, else it will hinder my training. Like now, I'm writing just to make myself follow my training schedule, it should continue no matter what is stopping it. After this, I'm planning to do one more thing. Maybe listen to some music and read for 20 mins, or play my FF13-2, yeah, probably that. I'm quite inclined to watch some Premier pro, inDesign, or Photography videos but I have watched a couple of them already this afternoon, so I'm probably not going to until tomorrow. I think I also have some tasks to complete, I can find them in my to do list. I better sort them out or else they gonna get piled up. That's cool, I get to sort my thoughts within 20 mins, I plan to spend a whole afternoon to concentrate on that task. Most likely gonna do it in Starbucks, ones with outdoor sit so I can observe people, observe life. Slow down, think, slow down even further. That is a luxury to me, I, like most people at this age, am occupied with 1 too many worries to slam the break. I like to think, I also like to think why I think. Sometimes I think before I realised why or how I think, I like to know the causes. By writing them down is the best way I can think of, there are probably a better way out there, but I just gonna try to write them down once before I start judging which is the winner.

Yeah, write them down, think, write more of them down so I can interpret them visually, to see what is not necessary, keep the gem, streamline my thought process.