"What kind of person do I want to be?" That is the question I'm always asking myself. Trust me, the struggle to finding the answer hasn't been straightforward.

Slow down, think, would the thing I do mindlessly direct me to my destination as planned? If it obviously won't, should I stop doing?
Slow down, Tom, take a step back and carefully think about it.

Unsurprisingly, I go to work everyday like most of the people at my age; I go home after 9 dreadful/joyful hours. I'm no different than the rest. This isn't right, if everyone is like that, why are there great people on the news paper? Why aren't they us? That must be something I overlooked. Luckily, I found a explanation for it. Everyone go to work in the morning and go home in the evening, estimating 10hours gone in a typical day. Eat, rest, sleep are the standard routine everyone follows before they start another robotic day.

That is what "everyone" thinks. I don't really want to be different just for the sake of being one, it is just coincident that the person I happen to want to be are.

Lying is bad, especially when you're doing it to yourself, so making resolution hasn't been my thing, so far. What I'm going to boldly say now are going to be the list of trainings I'm preparing for myself, in order to be "different.

Obviously, the thing that is hindering my progress, or so I'm thinking, is my lack of self control for my desires. Desires, other than those that are educational, made me spent time on wastefully. I would find out only after some time had been spent, but nonetheless I did manage to. After which I just had to pay more attention the next time those desires arose...

...and that is basically it, I just have to put myself in boredom to be the person I hope to be.

(Unfortunately, that's not it. I'm just getting tired and have to end the article abruptly. There will be more tomorrow, hopefully. )