It's not my job to look out for the welfare of others at the expense of myself.

December 22, 2010
Minor rain, Mood




I know what I want, but nobody's giving me chance. I have made this blog private so that I can freely say what I want to say. No worry about others to find out my blog. I don't need caring from other, I have had enough of that and I don't that anymore. I just wanna do what I want to do. I wanna start doing them as soon as possible. Every morning waking up just to find out that there is another day of waiting to come. Waiting for? To start my own life.

I want to get myself a life that is separated from what my family has been giving to me. I want to be financially independent. I want to be able to feed myself, that said I will have the ability to feed others I care too. Provided I am able to support myself financially. I know if I was to achieve I have to pull out of this family. Without doing that I don't think I will have the confident to accomplish my goals. I don't know if this thinking is correct, but at least this is what I believe at the current stage of life.

I know I'm being weak every so often, but I know that deep in my heart continue to fight is not an option, it is the only path I will choose. I don't have an alternate route; my family won't allow it. Therefore, I must fight. Keep on striving for my goals. I cannot give up, no matter what. I am myself, as always, best known as myself.