"I Can Do Better" is the path to ruin.

December 21, 2010
Rainy, Woke up late




Made a few mistakes today, mistakes that I should have been able to avoid. Will tomorrow be another mistakes free day for me? I hope so. My biggest weakness known to myself is my emotions. I must train myself be able to keep most of my emotional sides in check.

I come out with the idea that the first thing I do when I got my ID is to slim down. My target weight is 68kg.

I going to find a day in a week to go to West Coast park Mcdonald's to sort out my mind. I have too much information stuffed in it already. Maybe this Friday, I don't think I'm going for any Christmas celebrations with Darren on that day as I feel kinda sick to the same celebrations year after year. I want to choose a different one if I was to do any celebrations.

I'm not sure why, but I feel kinda awkward every time I'm with Darren. He is not a bad person, but sometimes I get really irritated by his behaviours. I dunno if I'm the only person who had had that kind of experience. Maybe is the way he talks, the way he acts, I just don't really like it.
I don't expect any changes from him since he is just too stubborn for it since he trusts himself more than anyone else. Or maybe I have known him for too long to believe he will review how he acts already. Not that I don't care about this friend of mine, not that I haven't been trying to tell him how I had felt, but what I have left to say to him is:

Wish you all the best.