Away from the noise

January 02, 2011
Rainy, Weary



I know I still can't quite speak English fluently but that is only a matter of time if I continue to bombard myself with this much of English reading everyday. I should not worry about it. I will not worry about it. I know I can. I just need to continue filling myself with English everyday as time allows.

Girls are deadly weapons to me and I know the reason why. Because they are sex appealing to me. If I want to get around them, I know I have two choices. One is to avoid them as often as I can and the other one is to not think about sex related topic when I'm with them. I think both of the options are valid enough to me to mix and match them when needed. I think it should not be a problem to me when I am calm. Just need to keep bottom half in check.

I know I can be affected by other people's life easily. I must stop that from happening too often and eventually stop it from ever happening. My life is the most important to me, nothing tops that and I cannot let it be affected by others'. I know best what my life's direction is and I cannot simply let it follow other people's life direction. I must be the captain of my life voyage. I must learn to protect it at all cost and not let it get injured. For I must shape my life the way I want in order to shape those of my love ones. Yes, I will remember it.

If I cannot write to you very day that doesn't mean I'm losing myself, it is just because I don't have anything worthy enough to share. I will save the material till the time when I feel I can write comfortably.

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Unbreakble One

January 01, 2011
Rainy, Itchy



I was able to keep myself under control even though some unexpected event happened during the outing with friends.

There are rashes all over my body and limbs. I had been eating prawns for my lunch yesterday, I guess that might had been the cause. Although most of the rashes are gone by now but some of them are still visible on both of my thighs. They are itching me. But I'm not quite worrying about them. I guess I might have learned a bit of the importance of being calm to different situations. Good thing.

I'm happy I remained calm throughout the whole evening, I really am.

I knew I could do that, and will do that for the many times to come.

Learned a lesson today, if I wasn't concerned about something, I should not even bother checking it out in the first place.

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Be strong!

December 20, 2010
Sunny, feeling good




Year 2010 is coming to an end soon. Tomorrow's the last day of the year. As I have planned, not going to spend lots of money and energy to celebrate it; I don't think there is anything worthy enough to celebrate. But since I'm taking a day off on the new year's eve I'm going to spend the day
to get the things I need for daily life. I hope everything's cool, including myself. I know I will be lost easily into this kind of festival emotions. I will start to think about all sort of things I have done or what will I do in the future etc. I know tomorrow is one of the days that I'm in high risk to it. But I've been finding ways to make myself calm down whenever I in this kind of condition. Let's hope everything will be as calm as a hippo. Although I'm worrying now, but I know I will pass through this time, and the many more times to come. C'mon, you can do it Tom! You have learn so much in this year already, this should not be something of an issue you should be afraid of!

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Just realised it's winter

December 28, 2010
Rainy, Drifting away






I have been thinking of settling down, and I'm have wrong. It's still too early for me to even think of that. I must not return to where I once was. I know my goals, I know I want to realize them, but I should not be too anxious about them. Step by step, start to do only when the time is right. I had tripped before and I shall never do it again. I'm glad how this blog is pulling me back to the rail.

This begins to let me think how important is the conversation between me and my heart. Correct thinking can only be achieved only through the exchange of them whereas separate them only leads to tilted results. I must always remember the theory and be reminded once in awhile.

My current is my Maths. I know I'm having difficulty learning that, still I haven't thought of giving out any time soon. I know it's tricky, but I know this dilemma can be solved with persistence. Slowly but steadily.

Let's hope I will find a way to sort things out and be contented with it.

I must be cool-headed.

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Procrastinating

Have been thinking to go to my favorite Macdonald's which is located at West Coast to sort my things out lately. By I can't find a good time to go this few weeks. I think I will go on this Friday, maybe at the night. I wish I can do it asap because I want to set some clear goals in my life. The way I live and the path I choose which will decide the directions I'm heading.

I don't have anymore I want to say today, I shall end it now.

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Goals

Exercise- No
Maths- 2 hours
English- 10 three-thousand words columns
Science- No
Geography- No
Happiness- No
Calm- Yes
Mistakes- 1
Lost control of my self- 1
Magic- No
Music- No
Iphone- No
$4000 a month- No
A house- No
Live alone- No
Life- No
68KG- No
75KG- No
78KG- No
Japanese- No
Girlfriend- No
Blackshot- No
Books- Harry Potter
Rest- Yes
Lost- No


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Genesis Glory

I have decided not to write about my frustration here anymore. This isn't to say that I'll be frustration free, I'll still get irritated by my surroundings. The reason I'm stopping this habit is because I don't want to make myself think there is a place I can always whine in whenever I'm have setbacks. Making this place a shelter kind of place isn't healthy for my life.

In the future, I will only see myself writing to motivate myself and remind myself of those wrong acting.

Soon, I will start making this blog as a place to record down my life. A recording that isn't about whining, but a place for motivating and enlightening myself and noting down my mistakes so that I can remind myself about them.


In addition, a place to track my goals in my life.
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