我又回来了 这几天过得很烦 可能是说太多话了 变得不太想自己 想要淡定也淡定不起来 整个人就是一个烦 烦到连呼吸都觉得烦 不知所措 不知道要怎样去调整心情 就算有时候心情好一点 面对着新年过后即将到来的问题 真地会怀疑自己要上哪去找勇气来面对 真得很苦 很想什么都不管 跑得越远月好 但 我可以去哪里呢 想想 这好像也是我另一个烦恼 我 好喘 被压得 喘不过气来了我也好想开心 但每次冷静想想 总觉得它离我好远好远 我不开心 我不敢开心 ℒℴνℯ

今天她来我上班的地方玩。一路往常的，她的出现每次都让我有点心神不宁。
这种情况不常发生在我身上，我想，对我来说，她或许是有一点特别。
性格还不算成熟，有点粗鲁，再加上少数人才能明白的感性，就是我对她耐性观察后得出的结论。

这不是爱情。
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Have been feeling down since yesterday, haven't got any ideas of what to do.
Except I'm planning to go to the cafe by the sea after when I got home and have taken shower. I hope maybe taking some hot chocolate will enlighten myself. Got to pull myself together, doesn't it?

I know I can, just let things develop naturally.

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我不知道我怎么了 我不知道我是不是真的了解自己
做了一个决定但却很快的又给了他否定
我不想对人发牢骚 因为我觉得那会给人带来困扰
给人带来困扰是我最不想做的事情
我只想按安静静的磨练
直到我的翅膀成熟了
才开始呼吸天上的空气
现在的我
只能忍受地上的污染
对
我还有翅膀
我还能飞
我需要时间
需要时间
我知道我比别人慢
但不代表我不能像他们一样达到终点
而之后
我还有去寻找下一个终点
我能够做到
我知道
这是我的路
虽然模糊
虽然孤独
我可以忍受
我不能现在就失去信念
我没有伙伴
我没有翅膀
不对
不是没有
只是还不是时候
我会有的
我知道
现在
我必须抛弃我的过去
因为只有这样我才能往前走
过去给我带来的
不是快乐
不是成功
是痛苦
是寂寞
唯有放下它 然后慢慢的忘记它
我才能成为我想要变成的自己
我不能让它耽误我
我不知道未来的我到底会变成什么样
但我知道如果我想要知道答案的话
现在的我
必须坚强
答应自己
我不能倒下
低头
就是认输
转头
只是避开
总有一天
会倒回来的
反之低头
就是完全放弃了
我不想要这样子
答应我
什么都不要想
除了朝自己给自己设的方向走
浪费时间去想结果也只是徒劳
未来是无限的
但是要有一个方向
所以
不要低头
不要急
一定会到你的


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Have been doing good.

Although I don't write here frequently now but no matter what I do just the thought of there is always a place for me to speak is enough to me.



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TO BUY:

Ankle pouch

Bao wen lunch box

Boxers (5)

DSLR camera

English wen fa xi lie black cover

Haircut

HD TV

Healthy snacks for work

IPhone

Kang Yong's book

long pants (excercise)

Magic card

Laptop (High performance)

Red watch

Shoes for long journey

Slippers

Spectacles

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TO REMEMBER:

Be cool

Can't take prawn heads

COmment only on the understood subjects

Donate olf stuffs instead of throwing them away

Don't get cocoa butter body soap

Don't buy any new clothes( until I've slimmed down)

Don't play notes

Don't recall with nolstagia

Go to m1 shop and enquire about phone reception problem

Habit: A late night a week

Learning: English

Learning: Japanese

Learning: Piano Guitar

Learning: Tai Ji

Learning: To say no

Learning: To tolerate

Learning: To schedule down my activities

Learn to read sentences only so is not to slow down the reading

Look for old memorable songs

Habit: A late night a week

Habit: Magic online

Habit: Sure porn websites not more than twice a week

Habit: To record down my schedule in calendar

Habit: To sort my mind every two weeks

HD TV 8ms-4ms 720-108

Manren songs

Not having haircut this month

Quote: Love rain drop because am an incarnation from the above

Respect magician

PR= Public relation

Sell asking

Speak elegantly

Think in English

To get an O level certificate

To read a 200 pages book every two weeks

To read 2 pages of columns everyday

To start exercising an hour five days a week(Running, basketall)

To slim down to 70kg

To treat my face

To use up all my Blackshot items hours

To write goals in life on a paper and keep in my wallet

1. 35 from jerii

To motivate:

A car

A house like Shinchan or a condominum

Being a MAGIC judge

Don't worry about the unknown

Do things that make my love myself

Don't keep looking around

Don't easily pick up new hobbies

Few friends but good ones

Horoscope: Noise,

Horoscope: Black, Camourflage, Cold blooded, Emotional, Fire, Lust, Mysterious, Pluto, Scorpio, Temptation, Neat

Horoscope: Coffee animal stripes, maroon

Horoscope: Chocolate, Candy

Horoscope: Library, Music shop, Sea, Quiet places

Job's hapiness level

Know faults, corrects faults, but don't admit them

Live life happily

Live my life, don't be bothered

I can settle with myself, but not with friends

It's okay to break some rules once in a while

Independence makes me stronger

Prioritise my priorities

Simple hobbies

Sort things out and think back after three years

Think in a optimistic way is very crucial

Think further

To keep lower half in check to better control myself

To write down my thoughts everyday ( talking to myself)

With creativity you won't get starved

When in the wrong situation, don't make decision

What life do I want

Working hard planning and concentrate living once planned

SYNDROME:

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Cold legs

likes to sleep

Weak limbs

LINKS:

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Bazi - http://wofs.com/index.php?Cool Illustration - http://www.padmag.cn/

E-books - http://www.freeopenbook.com/sorcerers-stone/pg_0068.htm

English Learning - http://www.speakspeak.com/

Mousehunt Tools - https://spreadsheets.google.com/pub?key=0ApQ2E8kH4UvzdF9kTFVrSmVtTXlqby1FT2o1bWdaUUE&hl=en&output=html

Royi Blog - http://122015365.qzone.qq.com/

Taiwan Variety Shows - http://www.maplestage.com/

option=com_jumi&fileid=7

Magic Comic - http://www.arcadiafloresville.com/manascrewed/comic.php?issue=1 http://ugmadness.net/

Harry potter - http://www.taybacuniversity.edu.vn/elib/Van%20hoc/Harry%20Potter%203%20%28J.K%20Rowling%29%20%28nguyen%20ban%20tieng%20Anh%29.pdf

MTG Saturday School - http://www.wizards.com/Magic/Magazine/Article.aspx?x=mtgcom/daily/jc40

Starting date:

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Geography - January 05, 2011

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Trying to find the sense of peace back to myself.

Yesterday was quite a long day for me I suppose as I had been out since 9 in the morning and would not be home until 3 in the morning on the next day.

My mind have been a mess since then and haven't been able to concentrate on my usual stuff.

What's more is that I would still need to go trough things I have not interests in for the rest of the day with this kind of emotions attached.

Wish me luck in find back those peaceful sense.

No, I am going to seek it back with efforts instead of luck.

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