火曜日, 9月 1

Day 1, 500words

Om.
I’m going to start the habit to write everyday starting today. Each article has to be 500 words at least. At the same time, I’m also going to pick up the habit to read once again. I’ll be writing consciously,  by using all the English vocabularies I learnt. I always yearn for a good self expressing skill. I’m able to comprehend things quickly, but sometimes I find myself in vain when I try to explain them to the other.

( I realized it’s only 98 words by the end of this sentence, maybe I’m pushing too hard. )

Melvin is the head of the company, I’d even go as far as to say that without him it’ll cease to exist. He is a very knowledgeable guy and is also a very hardworking one. I’ve been with the company for 3 months when tomorrow comes, I’ve hardly seen any sloth from him. He’s married and he has his personal affair to worry but he’s always caring about the company. Fearful of his health, I sure hope he’ll slow it down a bit. But people are insatiable, some in the company don’t know it’s constraint, they keep asking it for more. So what if they have a lot of money? They’ll just squander them away in no time. It’s an immense amount of time an effort to keep a company running, and they are squeezing every bit of them left out of it. Just the thought of it is repulsive.  Their attitude change when the company forsakes them, when the time comes it’s all too late.

( Almost, hang in there, Tom.)

Recently, my childhood friend just quit his daytime job to start his own business, inviting all the capable people to help. I’m to be his anchored host for his show. (Yes, he is starting a TV programme. ) Naturally, he’s the producer of the show, his wife, back up anchored host. (Also yes, I’d like to think myself as the main anchored host thank you very much.) Even though I’ve never been one, but I’m not fearful, my dormant eccentric self’s always open to take on anything. Mainly things that aren’t going to shorten my lifespan. (Well, technically everything  we do shorten our lifespan, but you get the idea.) Also I’m a potato couch, oh no, I should say had been a potato couch. Before my PC there was only a TV set that connected me to the outside world. Yes, not even a telephone. It was that time, consisted entirely of my childhood, that made me watched an immense amount of TV shows. I learnt what reactions would occur when the hosts said something. I know what was welcome to say and the forbidden words. I know the important thing, the trifle matters. Imperceptibly, I thought I knew everything about a TV show.


Yes, some people are gifted, congratulations. But like the rest of our kind, that, I believe that was the only way to shine. Om. Om. 

日曜日, 8月 30

Building blocks

I think I should evaluate the things that I think are important in my life. Because life is really short, it doesn't leave you much time after most of it are used on things that don't make you. I have a vision of myself, albeit not a very clear one at the moment, what I wanna be. To achieve that final product, I need to lay everything that occupy my time at this point of life on a table and filter out those that are essentially not a potential building blocks for it. After that, let my life go on without them. No question asked, no guilt and be focus on everything I will be doing.

金曜日, 8月 28

kunmut

I want to live the way i want, what I want isn't very hard why cant I live the way I want. Why am I paying the debt for what others have done, why cant he understgand, cadoes he think he deserve it since he is old already
isn't that unfair?
sometimes i hope he dies or go somethwere ther is out of my range, i truky odont want to see him anywmore
no matter what other says, i don vxare,
he is been too selfish,
and he doesn't even know that and continue to act like what
 mi f i hvea choice  i really dont want to face it
i dont know myi dont know if my limit is near, i dont know how much longer i can hoold, this is getting tough,
i want to do the things i want, i want to start doing th ethigns i want, i dont want to take care of the people i dont like,
 i dont like him, i dont like her
but i culd bring my sel,f to abandon them,, i still need their help
afte that i will llive the life i want,
really
really...

日曜日, 8月 16

Black Jack

I don't know why I didn't suggest a cheaper dinner today, probably I was afraid to be the spoiler. One of the things that help in having a healthy friendship to always have a good mood when going out together. Having a person in a group of friends who always have an opinion against everyone else is one of the worst thing that can happen and I surely don't want to be that guy. That makes my decision making sometime against my own will. Going out with friends is nice and all, especially when I think I learn something at the end of the day. It becomes less nice when I think I've wasted the trip. Both time and money. That's when I think going out with friends isn't so attractive to me. The problem is, you only know if you have gained anything after you are home by the end of the day. There are so many thigns that can happen that will make the tirp worthwhile at the same time there are also as many things that can ruin it. It's like a gamble, the safe way to handle it is to always have enough for yourself, in this case, time and money, before you can start to try your luck on it.

火曜日, 8月 11

Reflection

I feel like this is a place for me to ask for forgiveness. It's like a place to talk to myself, and I don't like to talk about positive things here, so that makes it an exit for my negative emotions. By no mean that is a bad thing, thought I should just make it clear. I'm not as negative as I think.

About 3 hours ago I downloaded MTGO, again, and spent around $16 on it. Not a lot I know, relatively speaking, it is. Is there any reason that made me spend that much? Yes, I want to remind myself once again the commitment I need to put on playing Magic again. The urge was getting huge and I need a reminded again. I reckoned Magic Online could be a good candidate as it is quite convenient. And so I did. Yeah I did a draft, played round 1 and lost. I felt that was enough for me. I don't have the money and don't want to spend my time on it. I won't feel right about doing it. Magic is a great game, I would recommend anyone who wants to table top game and also have a lot of time to spend. I had already had my share of Magic 10 years ago so I would rather spent on something else to make up for that. Phew, I feel better now to reflect on myself.

月曜日, 8月 10

Video editing

Finally I managed to get my hands on video editing, I got to admit it was certainly my thing as I like to create stuff. I've been quite curious on how special effects were applied to films and how cool it would be to create my own. So I made a video while playing around the settings, it really was quite an interesting experience. I would like to make more but I don't have anything that can reliably record movies so it would require me to use other people's footage if I want to make a movie. The one I made was using pure photos so I wasn't really able to touch on the video settings.

Finally I bought a drawing tablet, it was a second hand and the cheapest model, so far, I like using it. 

我希望可以因为他的便利而更勤奋的画画,接下来我想我还是会继续创造。我也希望我可以更有条理的写作。

日曜日, 8月 2

一个人

哈哈,我实在不了解在自己,一下子想作这,一下子想做那。我想要矮一点的桌子,我想买一些东西可是我又不想花钱,怎么可能。想做的事情我想去做,不然我不知道自己是真的喜欢还是只是想而已。我想做影片,拍照,画画,赚钱。我有太多顾虑了,我想知道怎样静下来。我想要自己一个人,靠自己就好。比较踏实。