Nyan Nyan Nyan

I always want to have a pet, seeing life wouldn't be complete without one. I think there are good for a person's mental health as they act as listener (who are especially bad at talking back.) if you need one. The potential effects of their lubrication on people's relationship also can't be neglected.

The reason that is stopping me is I live with my family so I have to concern about their opinions, too. My sister has an allergic nose, it will get itched even with the slightest disturbance. If argument breaks out because of that, then the whole pet-lubricates-relationship thing would be pointless.

Besides living space, there is also financial and time issues. I think I can definitely afford the food, but having a pet doesn't mean feeding it but also taking care of their health, too. I've heard their medication are costly and at this point of time it is really out of the question for me. Time would also be an issue for me(not at the moment, though) thus I must consider thoroughly adding an extra member to my family.

 By the way, If I was allowed one I will without a doubt choose cat as my pet. (Don't you think their indifferent, uninterested and selfish behavior are so attrative?)  

Grace

A post to show my gratitude to those person around me 

Smartphones weren't this common the very last time I wrote, I weren't this fat and the world was probably more forgiving. Unquestionably, things have changed. I have changed, as well as many a person around me have. My limited comprehension of people's emotion lead me to want to start writing again. I favor showing one's gratitude towards another being as soon as you have the chance, otherwise once the chance is missed
the disappointment of the irrecoverable chance might follow one's life for a long long time.

I digress, the whole point of this resurrection of this blog was to help me on my writing skills and also help me to recognize the importance of reading. I think if I can enhance my writing skills my interest and passion for it will have positive effect too. There are also countless of books I wish I could start reading but I always prioritize other hobby over reading.

I expect consistency in my updates for this blog, something that I have been struggling with.

I'm going to start with a friend, who is a Hunter, an Assault and a Headliner.
I'm pleased to have him as friend. He is notably important when sometimes I feel disoriented, although he gives guidance unknowingly but always cherish this type of advice. He is also resourceful when it comes to directions, to me he is like a walking atlas!

When I'm showing my weakness, his recognition would be my belief and his respectful nature to friend would be my enlightenment.

Thank you, my friend. 

好讽刺, 有好多话想说却又不想说. 这些年我到底成长了没有。觉得人家长不大，还是其实是自己才是没在长大的那个人。我已经搞不清楚了。

决定六月前再一次确认情况。我需要很大的勇气，该上哪找呢？

有些人喜欢勉强做一些事，明明能力范围内做不来，却表现得无所谓，到最后把别人一起拖下水。我一点都不佩服这种人。希望自己能做多做一些事，但其实都是别人在受苦。

我常常做那个别人。

我有一个缺点，也是个优点，就是我容易忘记小事。每次受到委屈，当下我有很多想法，过了一下子我就会忘记了。往往同一个错误一段日子我就会重犯。

最近我买了一些玩具。

我有一些目标必须用那些玩具来完成。

后来发现玩具有一个以前用过的功能，就开始用它。

然后就忘了本来的目标。

有点后悔，要是当初想清楚一点，就不会走偏了道路。

逼

明天需要早起出门，六点之后才会到家。 可是我现在还不想睡。
想很多。思绪很乱，我没办法整理，我不知道该如何是好。
我很怕，怕到不敢睡，怕到发抖。
我提不起劲，没心情做任何事。虽然我表现的不以为然。
我不敢对任何人诚实，我怕会被背叛，我只能不以为然。但我又不知道如何是好。
对朋友，家里人，陌生人，任何人，都不敢，我怕。
不管是谁对我来说都一样，我只能表现得不以为然，我真的不敢，我真的很怕。
我不知道该相信谁，也不知道谁能帮我。
真的只能这样下去吗？
一想到这里，我就浑身发抖。。。

不知道，想开始训练自己的文字表达能力

想改掉几个坏习惯 

但又怕做不到

这样会不会很弱？

但是不可以太让自己为所欲为

所以最近一直在想办法对付自己

让自我控制能力能提高

我会有想改掉坏习惯的想法

或许证明了多多少少对自己还有点信心

就那么一点

一点点

一点点

点点

有一件事我不想提起

只想让他快点过去 

是一件只要一想起就会让我郁闷的事

两天前的某个时间

和某个人相约半个钟后见

因为一些突发事情

我迟到了

到了

只有我一个人

我了解

迟到是他的座右铭

我等

五分钟

三十分钟

不夸张

一个钟过去了

打了快二十通电话

没人接

现在想起还是有点火

挺火

我表面冷静

但满肚子火

决定不等了

回家去

在回家路上尝试联络他

看会不会真的遇到什么事

通了

他妈接了

我是说他妈妈接电话了

认识

算不上是良母

唤他听

老样子

委屈样

不解释

说突然有事做再一下就来

不等他

我飚了两句

不是粗俗的话

我很久不说那些了

就是一些挺幼稚的话

挂了

决定一段时间不联络

反省一下

以为我说他反省？

我是在说我要反省一下

是不是不该说那些幼稚的话

顺带一句他从不反省的，至少他不让人觉得到

子供みたいの行為

約束を絶対守ります、　それが男の道です。　守れなければ男ではありません。

我很讨厌人与人争执，虽然如此我偶尔还是会这样做。

结果往往都没有什么好结果， 不管对方或此方。 

我不明白有话为什么不能心平气和的讲，偏偏要加上过多的感情去表达。

但是就像和许多不明白的事一样，就陷进去了。

时常告诉自己要这样要那样，但一旦正式上场的时候就靠直觉了。

果然修行还是不够。